About pmaillet

I've walked along Emaus Road for more than 30 years now. This blog will share about those I've met and what I've gleaned.

When God Doesn’t Heal

One day as I was walking home the Lord suddenly said to me, “I’m not going to heal you in this lifetime but I’m going to bless you all around it and I want you to enjoy those blessings.” That was years ago and to this day I remember the words verbatim.

I have a condition, two actually, which greatly restricts me. But it’s been the thing that has given me to understand, at least in my case, why the Lord would not heal.

I was thinking on this yesterday. Later when I was working in my blogs I realized that if God had healed me, I would not have been home working on the computer – and I would not have created more than 30 blogs (just the WordPress ones, many more in Blogspot) nor would I be putting the Gospel out there all around the world every single day. That realization shocked me. God can use me in the greatest way by leaving me unhealed.

This is only my case, but I believe God has a reason each time he does not heal. It could be something as basic as our maturity process, which applies to me also – doesn’t matter – it just shocked me when I realized what I’ve been doing all these days unhealed and wouldn’t have done if he had healed me.



What Is A ‘Prayer Warrior?”


* * * I need to make a statement clarifying a false image of me that some have.

This morning, someone asked me to pray for a situation ….because I’m a “prayer warrior.”

I’m not. And I felt conviction letting the person think something of myself that I’m not. Which led me to investigate why I felt conviction.

Let me explain…

What is a “prayer warrior”? I’ve been mulling this over in my mind all morning.

Well, when you hear the word “warrior,” you have to think of an armed enemy that you go out against. I learn from the Old Testament stories that Israel was to go out armed against their enemies ONLY when the Lord told them to. That means if you tackle an enemy without God sending you, you will be defeated or painfully wounded in the battle.

Just yesterday my Bible reading happened to be the battle at Ai which Joshua took upon himself to wage, and Israel was soundly defeated. There was a reason for that. Joshua didn’t know that there was sin in the camp, and that fact led him and his army to a stinging defeat. But worse than that, he did not ask the Lord before going out. He was greatly emboldened by his previous victory at Jericho, so he just ran out against Ai. And he was soundly defeated.

I see two principles here:

1. If there’s sin in the camp, you risk a sound defeat and possible deep wounding.
2. Joshua didn’t wait on the Lord, he went out rashly. That brought devastation upon the Israeli army.

I think we need to pay strict attention before we rashly call ourselves, or allow ourselves to be called, “prayer warriors.” I pray. But I do not move against the enemy except in the rarest of instances when the Lord leads me to. Therefore, I do not call myself a prayer “warrior.”

Two people asked for prayer this morning and in both cases I prayed. I did NOT address or confront the enemy, because I’ve learned through very painful experiences, and I mean dangerously painful experiences, not EVER to do that unless the Lord himself leads me to.

So please do not call upon me as a “prayer warrior,” because I’m not. I pray, I intercede, but I do not confront the enemy.



Danger On Facebook

I posted this on Facebook this morning:

* * * Something weird

I have Facebook “friends” whom I don’t know. This morning, one of them posted something in terrible English and hardly a word spelled correctly. I questioned “her” and she came back with comments in even worse English. I went to her site and all the posts there were in correct English, so I messaged her asking if she had posted the post in question which I gave her the link to. She answered that she did. And her answer was in terrible English.

Still scratching my head about this – I went back to her site and looked at her friends and family members. I clicked on a couple family members and their sites are bogus. So I unfriended “her.”

The name on her site was a very traditional American name, and that’s what threw me off.

Don’t ever accept a friend request without checking the person’s site. When it’s bogus, there won’t be many posts, and most of the posts will be pictures of the person and not much else.

I don’t know the purpose of people who create fake sites. Why would they do that? What’s in it for them? I get friend requests from people like that every single day.

Some of my friends who responded to this suggested that I block her. I hadn’t thought of that so I went back to her site to do so ….. and found that IT’S BEEN TAKEN DOWN!!!


Now I’m wondering if I have other fake “friends” on my Facebook account. I have more than 3,700 “friends,” it would be a nightmare to go to each one to find the bogus ones. I did vet each and every one before accepting their friend request, that’s why I was so shocked when this fake one became apparent.


I want to add here one more thing. I have several blogs, this being one of them, and I sometimes find that someone has “followed” my blog with purposes other than interest in what I post. I go to their blog and find it’s all about marketing and sales. I remove them, and they come back – every single day. I’ve researched trying to find out if there’s a way to block them, but on WordPress blogs there isn’t. I can block them from commenting but not from  following my blog. And again I ask, what is their purpose?


Don’t Trust First Impressions

Why is it that when you meet a person for the first time, you will quickly like or dislike him/her? What goes on in our minds when we have these reactions?

I had an “ah ha!” moment this morning when listening to someone for the first time on a video. I instantly disliked him. But as I listened to what he had to say and realized that I was in full agreement with what he was saying, it became obvious to me that my dislike was misplaced, and that bothered me. First it confused me, and then it led me to try to get to the bottom of why I had that first reaction.

As I continued to listen with this in mind, after awhile it came to me. He has the same voice that someone I truly do dislike has. So really, I was duped by my first impression which was automatic. Automatic but wrong.

This brought me back a to a job I once had in a large workplace. A woman came into my office and she wanted to vent her emotional hurt. I instantly disliked her. As she told the story of what was hurting her, I found myself very sympathetic to her pain. So later, I was left wondering why I instantly disliked her. It took awhile. I had to really think it through. Finally I found it! I realized that she looks very much like someone who had hurt me years before. So my instant dislike of her was very misplaced.

The mind, the soul, is a very complicated thing. My reactions were immediate, but my understanding was not. First I saw the very puzzling contradiction at having a reaction that was misplaced, and then I had to grapple with it until I found out why I had the reaction in the first place. And when I saw it I was shocked. It made me wonder about negative reactions to others and clued me in to be very careful with first impressions. That first impression could make me dislike someone for no reasonable reason, without my ever knowing it. But now I’m onto it and hopefully I will always distrust first impressions.